I've merged your two threads together because you've not reached 100 postings/replies on your original thread. It's been a while since you've been posting regularly, but we are now in the mode of merging threads with less than 100 postings together whenever possible.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
