Leaving it up to God (I think!)

[Coly23]

Ginger/sotto, thanks for your comments. Yes it does look like I am focusing too much on H and his needs but that's because my needs don't matter one bit to him!

Ginger, you are right his visits probably had more to do with me wanting to see him than D. However I realise it was enabling him to have the best of both worlds but it was just hurting me.

Well it's been over two weeks and not a peep from H, even D hasn't heard from him. We are pootling along with full weekends and getting D ready for her exams. She said to me yesterday when I asked if she has heard from him recently: "you know, I really love Dad but I don't like him at the moment so I'm not bothered about seeing of hearing from him". She is right off course, come to think if it feel the same way...

I just continue to feel rejected but trying hard to rebuild my self esteem. That's no mean feat!

Hope you are all gang a good weekend!