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[leahsue]

tryin2figure,
Thank you for the swift kick in the pants that I needed this morning!!! When I read your post, I thought, you know what, you gotta get yourself up and back in the saddle. So I did! I went and bought flowers and shrubs, worked in the yard all day, and had like 6 different people stop by and chat, some I already knew, but some new faces too. So tonight I am tired but happy that it was both a productive day, as well as a fun one. Not quite back to rockin it, but hey, closer than yesterday.
Confession time. I know I should not have allowed this to continue, but since the BD I have still shared an Uber account with my H. Which means he pays for it (which is nice although I don't use it much here in the south) but it also means I get an alert on my phone when either I call for one, he calls for one, or his 19 year old daughter calls for one- all on the same account. I've tried to create my own account by deleting the app and re-loading it, but it still would come up under his name. No big deal. He mostly uses it in NYC during work hours, and unless I deliberately go into the app and look at Your Trips, I don't even know. But if I happen to have my phone right by, I hear the alert and I can actually see the car picking him up, and where he's going, etc.
THIS MORNING at 7am I am asleep and the alert goes off, Your Uber is on its way. (In NYC.) Well, who the he$$ needs an Uber to get home that time of day, unless it's been a very wild night. It made me sick. Before anyone says anything, I ALREADY KNOW I SHOULD NOT HAVE DONE THIS- smile- but I texted him and said- "Your Uber is on the way." He texted right back and said- Thanks, I'll let daughter know.
Well, whether it was H or D, I don't really care. It is bad on several levels, no matter who it was. But NONE OF MY BUSINESS. The more I've thought about it today, the madder it makes me. Reminds me that I ASSUME (and you know what that makes ME) he is not seeing someone or sleeping at other peoples' places, but in fact, I have no idea where he goes or with whom. I realize none of this would matter, except he calls every day, and appears to be wanting to re-build some kind of future with me. He called about noon but I just did not want to talk to him. I feel like life is passing me by, while I GAL and all that, I know, but I feel almost ready to just say to him, you know what? Don't call me for a while, I need to think about what I WANT, for a change. And I'm not sure it's him anymore. I figured out the reason the Uber account won't go away is b/c it is saved in my icloud. Going now to figure out how to delete from there. I really don't want to know where either of them goes, much less see it in real time.