So proud of you. You changed so much since last December. It seems that a more confident" you" is starting to emerge.
I am really impressed how you handled that meeting/conversation and how you were able to detach and validate him for such a long time. That's your life, only you can decide what the best for you as today, tomorrow being tomorrow.
(((hugs)))
Me 52+ WH 57+ Married 20 + Piecing since 2016 (ready to give up...)