Well a bit of kick in the teeth.... UGH. H just called and has had to postpone his visit. They changed the date of his office move from May 1st back to April 21, so his plan to come here April 12-20 has to move also. He sounded really disappointed and I believe he truly is, but I kept it very DB- which was harder than I thought b/c I don't think I realized how much I was looking forward to seeing him. Which may be a very good thing that it moved, considering that. I think I said all the right things and did not make it about me- acted AS IF it was fine either way for me, but when I got off the phone the dam burst and I just cried and cried. Such a letdown to think now it will be at least another month before I even see him. I'm fighting the urge to not answer my phone when he calls next, or to say things that are purely motivated out of my desire for reassurance, which I already know I won't get. I know that's not the DB way. But OH I HATE THIS. Oh well, more time to be working on me, I guess. Just needed to vent for a minute. Hope everyone is having a good Friday. Tomorrow is APRIL FOOL'S DAY, for all the fools out there who are letting us slip away.
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton
