Wife left two days before our anniversary! Part 2

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Anyway, I digressed. start thinking about all of your positive qualities. Start thinking about all you have to offer, usually I would say get your ego out of the way, but in this case, groom it a little bit. you are a loving, caring, honest man, (from what I have seen here) you have a lot to offer a woman that WANTS to be with you and cherish you. I know it's hard to think about another woman right now. I don't like the feeling of having to picture another man in my life, other than H. but, I have literally started putting together my ideal man in my head. it keeps my mind off my H and actually excited about meeting someone new someday. If H decides he wants to stay and make things work, great. but i can't sit around and wait. I preparing mentally so that if it does happen, I'm already halfway disconnected.

Thanks Sunmoon, I hear you loud and clear. But, I must admit, I can't seem to see any positives at the moment. I seem to be losing myself in all this. What has been said to me, about me, the way I've been treated and isolated in all this - I can't seem to stop seeing myself through her eyes! Keep questioning and doubting myself - was this a bad marriage, was I cause of it, did I really not listen, did I treat her badly, was I a bully, etc. I'm seeing myself as the culprit and cause of this sitch. Like I deserve. Plus, this isolation and being left with no-one is taking it's toll on me.