thanks . I would like to answer some question you brought up. I have been improving myself since about december. I am a new man and focus solely on family now. what [censored] is that in my time of improvement is when she decided to accept the invitation of this man who I thought was my friend. She tells me no one can change like you have that fast...well you know, I beg to differ. I am determined and when I set my mind on something, I do it...she thinks it is all fake .
she is a firm believer that she will never want me again and is only here for the kids and I am her financial security.
As for forgiving her about her affair...I am truthful when I say I will look passed that. it is not fear of losing her. I really do love/care for her that much.
she says she loves me for being the father of our childern etc and I am a great dad..Kids love me and I pretty much take care of them 90 percent of the time since I work from home.
The only complaint I have heard from her is that I have neglected her over the years emotionally etc. Like, I was not always huggy and kissy etc. I admit that and I owned it and I addressed that. The problem is, she does not want to give me the chance to show her. She is too blinded by this new guy and its butter flies and meant to be situation that I dont stand a chance
. I would like to answer some question you brought up. I have been improving myself since about december. I am a new man and focus solely on family now. what [censored] is that in my time of improvement is when she decided to accept the invitation of this man who I thought was my friend. She tells me no one can change like you have that fast...well you know, I beg to differ. I am determined and when I set my mind on something, I do it...she thinks it is all fake 
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