Oh, and it's my off weekend so I'm headed to a spa for the weekend. Trying to get a couple business opportunities lined up. Feels good to be out.

One thing that has come up is flirting. I have not flirted in like 15 years...now I'm noticing women (noticing me) and starting to consider y options.

I feel like I a,m abandoning my children every time my mind starts going to a place of "you know what I'll just get divorced and remarry a much younger woman and start a new family". The thoughts have started coming lately for the first time in 1.5 years of hell with my wife. I guess they are natural, but they are both scary and exciting.

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Me 45, W 50
M1 - 1994
D1 - 2000
T-8 M-2.5
No children
M2 (current w)- 2003
T-14 M-14
BD1 - Jan 2016
Sept 7 2016, Piecing
BD2 - Nov 2016, IWAD
Jan 2017, Piecing
D-12, D-10,D-10,D-10,D-9,S-8