That's what I can't get over I guess - why this way? Why could she have not this amicably, with some compassion, respect - I spent twelve years with her - her best friend, lover, husband. Why would you want to hurt me and be so brutal? Isn't it sadistic? Like something is dead inside her.
Unfortunately, that's how it is. There is no easy way to answer these things. The truth is, well, brutal...but it must be faced.
My marriage made it 10 years. At least we got that far, right? I was in your position, until virtual hammers pounded some sense into my head. When they are determined to leave, they view us as holding them back - and the more we try to do just that, it makes them that much more bitter toward us. It is what it is, my friend.
You've been given the wonderful gift of time to make yourself the best jbroken you can be. And unfortunately, that's all you can do. Nothing else matters now.
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It's like in three weeks I went back to zero. Perhaps, even in negative.
I wish I could spare you the pain that we've all gone through. You haven't gone into the negative. You are just doing what every single one of us has done before - and some are still doing...and that is trying to hold onto a memory. The butterfly, my friend. Remember the butterfly.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
