First time here

[leahsue]

Hi everyone,
Back to Orange Theory Fitness today, and I beat my numbers from last week, so that made me so happy! I was seriously thinking I can't do this, it's too hard, but now I think I can.
I didn't talk much to H over the weekend, but we talked Sunday afternoon and he again mentioned coming down, possibly this coming weekend. I went to IC yesterday and that was good, since I had to skip the week before due to the flu. He called late yesterday afternoon and asked about coming down April 12-20! That's a long visit. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I asked if he would plan on staying here, and he seemed stunned for a minute, as if that were a given. Then he kind of stammered, well, yes, if that's OK with you. Between now and then, I'm going to work on keeping up my GAL activities, and start now practicing NO EXPECTATIONS. Light and breezy, kind and fun, no R talks. But I do think it may be harder for me to do that with him here that long as opposed to just a weekend. I just need to really get myself in a good, strong mindset, and allow myself to take breaks if I feel myself slipping. Any advice on other things I should be mentally working toward? I already read 37 rules every day, and I'm still working my way through others' threads and stories on here. I just finished going back through Psysara's, and I have to say she may be the poster child for DB! What incredible strength and determination! My hat is off to you girl, if you happen to see this. You are an amazing little spitfire of a woman, and he IS a fool to not be doing all he can to win you back.
This place has literally saved me these last few months. It is at the top of my list every single day of things to be thankful for.