I really do want to get rid of this anger. It is not healthy for me at all. You are exactly right when you said all I want to do is snap, fire off or cry and fall apart. And, I really do wonder when this is going to get better. It really is holding me back becoming a better version of myself.
I know that I am the one who will decide when I get better. I just wonder if me continuing to act this way is me having control issues.....probably so.
O M G ...... I had such an "AHA moment" when you said what your therapist said to you about H in the mouse hole and we are the lion just waiting for them to come out so we can roar and pounce on them. He told me is scared to call me or initiate any conversation with me because he is afraid of how I am going to react. That makes me sad
Even when you don't rip his head off, with each interaction, are you reminding him that you are hurt and angry? If so, he will stay hidden. THIS IS SO ACCURATE!!!!!
I am meeting him for dinner tonight. We have not seen each other for 4 months. I am really hoping I can control my emotions, as well as my reactions.
