Her MLC: The Battle I Didn't Choose

[Gordie]

Gordie: Brubeck, thanks for the update, sounds like a lot has happened, internally:

Brubeck: I am going to keep looking for a job, but I am not going to worry about it.

Gordie: This is the right attitude. This can also overlap with your GAL activities. Network like crazy, go meet up with old colleagues, clients, acquaintances. I have never gotten a new job through a headhunter, always through networking.

Brubeck: Nonetheless, over the past 3 months, I slowly feel like I am arriving at the conclusion that I am just really repulsed by all of her behavior. D or no D, I don't want to feel this way forever. I think she's disgusting, and I want these feelings to go away. I'd rather be happy.

Gordie: I know that feeling...of wanting the negative feelings to go away. Like you, I don't want to be angry and sad and bitter for the rest of my life...and as you know, you don't have to be...you can choose the opposite.

Brubeck: I guess I am jealous of OM. Her A definitely makes me feel inadequate. I do wonder - why does she prefer him?

Gordie: I think we all have these thoughts...but I urge you not to dwell on them. Nothing good will come of it.

Gotta run...more later...