One of the hardest - and most painful - things that I faced while going through all this was coming to terms with reality. You know, for the longest time I tried to ignore that great big elephant in the room. I always thought that if I did DB this way or that way, that she'd come back. Never did. And going on two weeks divorced now.
Another thing that I had to realize was that everything - and all the answers to my crazy posts back then - was geared toward helping me become the best that I can. If the ex were to come back, then what would have been a by-product of it all...but she didn't, and I learned through all of the awesome help on here is that I could stand on my own two feet without my legs feeling as if they would collapse.
I never thought I'd come to grips with losing her - my wife, best friend, and lover - but I did. I find that I'm better than OK now. My future isn't the one I wanted, but its the hand I was dealt. I have two amazing kids that need me to be the best that I can, and that's where my heart and life lies.
You have this...and you, too, will be better than fine.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
