i read your comments from the last few days and it brought a well of emotions...I wanted to say how much I feel your pain.
you talk of incompetence. I can only counter with what I know and that is that you are one of the most organized and sharp people I have ever known....far from incompetent.
yes you allowed yourself to be taken advantage of by a sociopath and you are still reeling from that. you have learned so much from that and will continue. you have helped so many others learn from your pain. you have shown strength beyond measure.
I agree with 25yrmlc in that some good old fashioned self care will go a long way here. I totally understand the loss of connection with higher power....why...why..why. it never stops. I always get back to the $hit happens reply and move on...what else can you do always remember how special you are. I had someone tell me the other day, 'I am not going to let you talk about yourself like that' in regards to a joke i made.he made me smile. I thanked him...made my day.
I am sorry I have not been around. I miss our little talks...I just can't spend the time here I would like to right now.
