Round 2

[Tryin2figuritout]

Interesting weekend. Really good one with me and the kidos and really appreciate them more than ever. Hate that it's times like these that reset priorities, but take it.

We worked a water table for a charity run yesterday for a cause near and dear to my Sister's heart. I had to get through this before telling my family because I wanted the focus on my Sister's cause and not our R drama.

We had a wonderful morning together as a family. Good relaxed convo with the W as opposed to the last month or so of heavy R discussion. Grabbed lunch after the event and the W noticed I took of my ring and said "that's surprising". She was immediately ready to go after that and I could see she was upset.

Late afternoon I got to go to my parents, brother and sister and catch them up on things. Very supportive and glad to have some of this mess off my chest.

This morning as we're getting ready for school the W asked my S10 about signing his conduct card from last week which I told her I had already taken care of. She responds "I guess I'm really not needed around here as you're just knocking it out the park."

Know that I'm happier in my detachment than getting noticed by the W. It's really the only way to tackle this head on. She's gonna lose out on the M that we have and I know this and can sleep well at night knowing this.

Going to see our old marriage counselor today without the W. As she knows our failings better than anyone, I just want to reset with her about how I'm dealing on self. Is this validation of some sort, sure, but I look at it as a step in the process.