Okay, time for a brief update before I don the spandex and head to the gym. Happy to report that even after a weekend of totally overindulging, my weight remained steady. Back to the grind today! 18 lbs and continuing the march...
I think the phone convo and my trip to Seattle have got Mr. Wonderful's wheels turning. He phoned me after our morning sales meeting just to see how my weekend went. He seemed genuine and sincere and I have to say here (before God, men and BB friends) that this is a distinct departure from the norm of the past 18 months.
He also volunteered the answer as to why D10 wigged out on Saturday by barricading herself in the bedroom for 2+ hours. He said after Gary left that she let him in. He asked her to be honest with him, and I guess she decided to let him into her heart.
She told him that she gets very jealous when he has friends over. I guess she mentioned to him that his friends ignore her and act like she's just a piece of furniture--whereas my friends include her in convos and activities. She told him it makes her feel invisible.
He told me this with a sad lilt to his voice. Since he offered this info to me of his own volition, I'm ASSuming that this newfound information is bothering him. As well it should.
As my Seattle faring friends know, Seattle holds some matrimonial significance for us. Two years ago, I made a solo adventure trip to Seattle with one specific purpose: to justify my decision to leave Mr. Wonderful. I came home with a different answer, and he--of all people--knows what I had set out to do. Nobody was more surprised than he (well, me) to hear that I had decided to stay--telling him that leaving was not the answer, though I didn't know how to go about fixing what was broken.
He's seemed more concerned about this trip to Seattle than any other trip I've made recently. I wonder if it's something that forced him to feel the anxiety he felt almost 2 years ago?
I don't know.
Anyway, I'm glad I could avoid sending him that letter by addressing this stuff with him on the phone instead. For the first time, I think he hears the clock ticking.
Meredith--I'm thinking of you so much I'm getting a headache. I hope your evening went better than your day. Pam--missing you too.
That's it for now. Have a good night.
Bets
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
