Thanks buttrfly. Still trying to focus on myself and kids but I've had a few triggers I've had to quickly let go before they get me spinning, I hope I'm not stuffing it away to pop out at some later date.
SBJ, I hope it is the next step. Well, it is no matter how things turn out, not in my control. Things have been going nowhere since this fall and w thinks it is what she needs. She forgets how her friends (pre Mlc friends, not her new ones) used to joke about stealing me and that I'm not what/who she's making me out to be. I have no expectations but think sooner or later she will realize the grass is greener where the dogs poop. Idk if I will be around then, sometimes I think I'm getting to where the door is closed but not locked.
W lost her keys Wednesday do I had to go pick the kids up from daycare. She beat around the bush until I asked if she needed a ride to get her spare. She kept apologizing and acting like it was a big deal. I just told her things like this happen and not to worry about it. While driving she vented about work and talked about her trip she leaves for tomorrow. I mostly listened. She was supposed to take the kids today for some time before she left but she never came though. Her loss, what else can I say, it's sad. Thankfully I didn't tell the kids ahead of time so they weren't let down.
