Busy day so far. Up early to change a tire on my truck and clean up a couple house things before our showings today. Planted some trees yesterday bc one of the feedback items was a lack of privacy alongside one part of our house. Nothing from W except more complaints. She is a little nicer to me when she needs something but is the same cold person when she does not. W got mad at me for throwing away some used paper towels that were on the floor. (She "doesn't need my help" with things)

Took D to the zoo during the showings. Just her and I. We grab subs on the way home. W complains bread is too hard. Whatever.

D then has a friend come over. I ask W if she'd gotten D something she'd asked for for her birthday. W tells me she told me that weeks ago and like always I don't listen. Did not push back there, but I know she never told me that. Barely talks to me now.

Then W tells me that I can't just make plans without discussing with her. (D asked me to take her to a park and a botanical fardens tomorrow morning and afternoon to hunt Pokémon). That it's not healthy for me to be Ds playmate. That it goes for both W and I. That D should be out playing with friends. That I make plans without knowing what else is going on. W says me spending as much time as I do with D is not good for her independence. She then adds that it's not good for me. She uses herself as the example of not spending too much time with D. She says that I'm missing that D is not happy with me. I tell her that D and i can manage our R and we talk about and fix things when they happen. W says that's not the case and D is hiding it from me.

She then adds that the dynamic with the 3 of us in the room is not healthy for D. I tell W that the dynamic is not from D and I, it's from her. W stumbles, says she knows and that doesn't matter, and says I'm missing the point, as always, then goes quiet.

I tell her that I will work on finding a better balance of my time and Ds. I then say if she can work on the dynamic then the three of us in the room at the same time would be better. W says there is no way she can stop being angry at me, ever. That's just not going to happen.

Now I'm sitting here posting this while being 5 feet from W in the family room. It's surreal. D and friend just came down to show me memes they made on the iPad. Everything here is normal, except for my W. I don't know why she keeps trying to play it off that it's me.

Still grinding...


Me39
M11 : T13
D9
BD 5/31/16
In House S until 6/21/17
Divorced 10/5/18