Kevin, thanks for the OTF encouragement. I'm going to need all I can get to keep going there. So many FIT, YOUNG, HARD BODIES. Plus, the first time I went, I got 12 splat points and stayed in the orange almost the whole time. The 2 times since, I have not gotten to nearly that. I think the first time I was operating on an adrenaline rush, plus pushed by my own insecurities. The other times it just felt like ~ what fresh HE** have I stumbled into now? smile Look, at my age, I'm not training for the Olympics. I just want to feel good, be a little healthier, and if the body follows then that's a plus too.
Helies, I used to be fun and cool, and I'm clawing my way back. So much fun to be had, and I had forgotten!
I went to happy hour and had a ball. He did call while I was gone, but I didn't call back when I got home. Happy houred out, you know? Also, H has hated Facebook the last few years since his ex blew him up about some really sweet post he put up about coming home to me or missing me or something- (and BTW, we had been married TO EACH OTHER for 10 years at the time- go figure- talk about crossing boundaries-but another subject)- anyway, suddenly this week he posts a little video of a fireworks display he made from his balcony of the NYC skyline, then yesterday he replaces his ancient profile photo of us, with a great picture of he and his daughter. In my happy hour state last night, I think I over-reacted to his doing that. I saw it as removing me. I think now it was just a really great picture of him and he is starting to come alive again. I need to quit making things about "AT ME", when usually it has nothing to do with me at all. Luckily, I only over-reacted to my sister and not actually ON FB (never get on there after happy hour), and certainly not to him. Off to a wedding weekend. Later, friends. (And I sincerely do mean friends- that's how I think of this board now-as real friends. Another plus to all of our having to be here.)
Jeep, when I get back, I'm coming over to TW and join the misfits. Sounds like my kind of people!

M-60 H-51
M-14 years
BD 12/26/16
S 1/1/17

"First the pain, then the rising."
Glennon Doyle Melton