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[Gordie]

Wow, another thread.

Thank you for your words of wisdom Helies.

In addition to feeling melancholy, I am feeling so paranoid. Ugh. I hate that I am doing all this mindreading. I just need to stop.

Since I know H has filed, but hasn't served me, I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop.

My sister in law is coming to town late next week. When I have texted her to talk about the trip she has been taking an unusually long time to respond. My mind assumes the worse. I assume H is going to have her serve me. I have this awful feeling that this is how he is going to choose to do it.

It is completely irrational on so many levels.

Right now I kinda feel like I am going crazy.

I hate that anxious feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's not good for your mental or physical health and a terrible way to live. Roist gave me some great advice to let go of it. You can't control it. If it happens deal with it then. Dreading it won't make it happen or not happen but it will make your life miserable. Write down your fears and process them. You can control that.