I personally think melancholy is good. It is better than fence sitting. I think it means you are processing and trying to get somewhere. I am melancholy too. I think I'm done with the old marriage and the H who was part of making my life a living hell for the last 7 years (me of course being the other integral part).
I wanted to mind read last night about why he didn't respond to my text. Why he texted D instead letting her know he had received my text. Why he waited until this morning to actually "read" my text. But nope. Guess what. Don't know and don't care. Whatever I come up with is probably wrong anyway.
Instead, this was my walk away, given that he still can't behave like a "normal" person, as in read my text right away (since his phone is glued to his hand 24/7) and actually answer me, he definitely is having some feeling about me (I don't know what it is), but I will take it.
Do something wonderful today for yourself. One thing. Something you never do. Honor your strength and your struggle. Reward your hard work. I haven't decided what mine will be, but it will be something.
