Good morning Helies and Marye - thank you for your responses. I appreciate the sharing of your experiences. I know when my H is gone, working late, or God knows where, I do like it better. I feel more free.
Helies, I read your post on LALost's thread about control. I don't think I ever truly had insight as to why I felt the need to have control over the situation, but when I read your response a light went off. I grew up in an abusive household as well and having a sense of control/mindreading allowed me to feel some level of stability. I felt like I could predict/avoid the chaos.
I see my need for that now and I see how it has come about. Now if I could just learn to let it go completely. Lol!
I am feeling very melancholy today. In my mind I am trying to figure things out. I keep searching for answers that will likely never come. I hate that.
