Leaving it up to God (I think!)

[Coly23]

Hi Helies, thanks so much for your response especially as it is so late.

H knew D wasn't going to be home, I always warn him and leave it up to him if he still wants to come over and spend the evening with just me. He has always brought a bottle of wine on a Friday as we have or have been having dinner as a family twice a week.

I don't know if he will bother to contact me after this. I've had a few occasions after a long stretch of being strong where I have tipped over the edge and begged and pleaded for him to come home. Still after nearly a year!

I just so desperately want to put it right and drop him a text to apologise but like you say it might push him away further... D says I should be strong and not text him, after all he is the one who left so I have nothing to apologise for. IDK. What if I sent him just a little text....

ps - sorry for the spelling mistakes!!

pps - Sorry Job for not linking my previous thread, I tried but couldn't do it from my iPad... :0(