Count on ups and downs (III)

[WillDo]

Another sleepless night. I am not silencing my brain as I think. It is impacting me. My thinking my actions is getting more and more filed with anxiety. I want todo an action, initiate conversation, do some other changes. But I feel down. Hopeless and an urge to cry. The comfort food in the long run trigger these as well. The sugar levels get out of whack. I had made a conciuos decision way back that my life is not my studies, my work but my emotional being. Had invested strongly in my emotional being which really brought in my W. That awakening had made me a better person. But I think I couldn't keep the balance which dragged me into more and more depression. And that backfired in the long run. That was me who took his emotions seriously which made him a confident man But the confidence deterioted and I became selfish. Soul searching. I miss the connection. I am fighting for it still.

I am struggling. Feel betrayed at life and work. Focusing on family and keeping my head up to combat.