Dealing with Devastation

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Thanks for your words. I'm glad that she isn't with anyone else as far as I know because that is such a big obstacle to wait on. I'm discouraged by the feeling that this is more MLC than just WAW because there's even less control and it takes more time with probably less guarantees. But I do feel stronger, more confident. Being able to look into her eyes and feel and see I'm not crazy is a big step. I still have my days where I'm a wreck, detaching comes in spurts but I'm still making plans for the future for myself, including living situation when the roommate sells the house. She did mention to her father, who is still calling to talk to me, that she noticed some positive changes yesterday. She's stubborn and hasn't changed her position, but I've come through the woods to find the road. I know it's worth the fight. Gotta remember to notice the baby steps.