Me and Mildlife and...III

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Mach1,

I logged in for the first time in a long time yesterday, if not but briefly, and read the above. I was not necessarily absent from here on purpose, but feel kind of glad I was indeed absent. Felt like the lack of need if that makes sense. That said, ^^^true to about 98%, and as always thank you for the honesty. There was nothing suiting of me about such statements that I made.

Where I am at now is both because of and simultaneously independent from the W. I think I will post a follow up, as at this point I have said to her everything I had ever wished to, save one tiny thing which is moot at this point, but not sure I have the mental energy a the moment - much has occurred, both w/ W and just in my own goals, GAL's, gains. And the bulk of the lack of energy, most of it in fact, comes from me being physically & mentally tired by me doing me, not her.

I did not realize when I first checked in here tonight and began reading that I needed/wanted to be in here. However, for some reason, today hit me harder than I have felt in a while and thus, today I felt weaker than I have in a while. But just reading a reply, just catching up on some friends' stories has made me feel better.

Actually, that may have come out skewed, reading my friends here did not make make me feel better in the sense that 'misery loves company' just that names and stories I have been a big part of since last summer still exist. In truth perhaps I should wish something else for my friends, but everyone seems stronger as a result, so that is good.

Anyway, back to school work - burning a long light into the darkness to clear some deferred grad school items and took a side road.

Be well everyone.