I agree w/Dawn, you are most definitely not incompetent nor awful. You've handled your situation w/dignity and grace and continue to be a strong, independent woman throughout it all. Right now, the big picture looks bleak, but in time, as you carve out that picture, little by little, it won't look as bleak. I have faith in you and you will figure this out.
Your higher power is there...dig deeper for patience and know it is waiting for you to reconnect to it.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
