I guess I will keep taking this day to day even though D papers are on their way through the court.
Has signing the papers changed the way you feel about your situation and what you want?
HimGordie,
I've been thinking over your question since yesterday and it's mixed feelings but I want to say no. However, I think there is something different going on in me. Acceptance or detachment maybe. Maybe not, if I found out she was seeing someone right now I'd probably be wrecked. But I am able to step back and see things going on, w/me and w (not just her interactions towards w/me but in general). She's still wallowing in MLC and she still thinks I'm the source of her unhappiness (everyone is soooo cool except me). I still want to save my marriage but I sure don't want her back in the state she's in.
Originally Posted By: Bee29
Hi Kyh,
I was away for a week and didn't have much access to Internet. I'm really sorry I missed those difficult days of yours!
But I'm happy to see that you seem to be doing fine. It's time to start taking care of yourself and put all the drama behind. You never know what will happen next so it's better to concentrate on the present and do something for yourself, enjoy quality time with the kids and start finding your place in a different settings.
It's great that you went for reiki. I did that a few weeks after separation last year and I must say it helped a lot.
It's almost midnight here and I'm falling asleep but wanted to tell you that I'm thinking of you! I hope all this is for the best and that there are only nice surprises for you in your future.
Take care! And should the numbness go, allow yourself to grieve, if you need to. Big hug!
Hi Bee, great to hear from you! I hope you're doing well. You sound like you're doing good too. I hope so. Funny you posted because I had been thinking about pulling up your thread to see how you were. You're right I've had enough drama for this lifetime and I need to shift focus and energy to myself and the kids. It's hard but I'm getting better at it. She was here until later last night again, I was friendly but just let her be, did my own thing and enjoyed the kids.
Thanks for stopping by and the virtual hug. Let us know how you're doing when you have a chance.
I'm still feeling indifferent to the decree. I guess it's the next step in whatever is to be. I do think it's weird w came here to do laundry the last two nights, I couldn't help but wonder if it was a temp check of sorts, I did catch her looking at me once. I didn't give it too much thought though. Watched hockey and scooby doo w/the kids and let her be. We're doing a half week this week to change our schedule so w can take her trip. Can't wait to get them back at the end of the week. I know they're excited too.
