First time post feeling lost and confused

[Vanilla]

Whenever she says something awful then remember it's a thing call projection

That means you are likely the opposite of it

You are selfish.....actually you are generous

You are unkind,....you are super kind

You are horrible...

Etc

My ex said I was incompetent, selfish, unfeeling, ugly, fat, unfaithful.....

I bought it and I shouldn't have. It diminished me and prevented me from functioning.

And I am learning it is make believe. And you would think someone as faithful as V would be able to say I haven't cheated! Instead I searched my mind, why would the Gigalo think that?

V