Thank you so much for your thoughts and suggestions.
I up to pg 280 of the D R book.
I started training for a new niche career and I have referred to that as training or my project etc. Sorry for the confusion.
I have been involved with my family during this time and I have worked on and off and had other small sources of money but that in no way made up for our losses. I recognize that in my state of mind at the time I didn't work enough to keep the finances afloat.
I thought my wife understood my love for her and our children and what I was trying to achieve for us.
I am currently working in a 'self employed' job being paid regularly but not well and it is dependant on the amount of work I get. This is why I am looking for a fairly short course in a particular trade but I intend to work as well.
When we met I was able to take care of my then future wife in difficult circumstances and this led to love and we married within a year. She is a wonderful woman with a great personality but I think that I have broken her. Hurt her so badly that she has become depressed and this depression has caused her to lose her love and respect for me and reach out to others.
I recognize my failings and I am trying to correct them and to be able to take care of my family but whole I am working toward my goals I want to improve my relationship with my wife and not make mistakes that may push her away or further into the arms of another.
I hope this answers your questions Sandi2 and gives you a little more insight into my situation and thinking. I'm sorry I don't yet know how to attach these answers to your quotes.
