Jeep, thanks for your input. I know I will find the urge again, I just wish it was now when I really need something to keep my mind off the current situation, and keep myself looking busy. When he comes home from work, and in the mornings before work I struggle to find something to keep me busy. I literally just walk around the house and "act" busy. today I left to go drop some things off at goodwill and to go tan, and then I sat in the parking lot just so I appeared gone and busy. told him to fend for himself for lunch today. he was fine with it.going to be asking for more hours at work - need the money anyway, and it keeps me busy thinking about other things as well.
