Im trying very hard to do my own thing, however since the bomb, all my hobbies and interests have really disappeared, I garden, I have chickens and other animals I tend to, and I'm very spiritual and love to spend time educating myself, but lately I haven't wanted to have anything to do with it.
I was the same way at first. Wanted nothing to do with my original hobbies. I don't know what snapped and brought me back to them, but it was a relief and welcome thing. I find that hobbies that force concentration to the best. You will return in time.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.