I like the smoothie analogy haha. And Yes, this is what I have been trying to do. It has been so hard listening to him and not being able to defend myself or even say anything productive. But I have been keeping my mouth shut. the last couple of days he has been playing off of my insecurities as well. He's been making a point to say things that would make me feel...I guess jealous maybe? And Im not sure where this is coming from or why. maybe testing me? I don't think he is being an adult about this whole situation, I think it's a horrible thing to do to a person, to know their weak points and use them in a time like this. never in a million years would I think he would display this type of behavior. it is so heartbreaking to me.
Im trying very hard to do my own thing, however since the bomb, all my hobbies and interests have really disappeared, I garden, I have chickens and other animals I tend to, and I'm very spiritual and love to spend time educating myself, but lately I haven't wanted to have anything to do with it.
I don't necessarily think he is not able to perform. like I had said we did get somewhat intimate a few nights ago, and then again the next night, and I have been making a point to put myself out there everyday, and he's rejected me 3 times since friday. I've felt an absolute jolt in my libido since the bomb, and I guess I'm just disappointed that it didn't do the same for him. maybe you are right, that an emotional connection should be worked on first.
haha. And Yes, this is what I have been trying to do. It has been so hard listening to him and not being able to defend myself or even say anything productive. But I have been keeping my mouth shut. the last couple of days he has been playing off of my insecurities as well. He's been making a point to say things that would make me feel...I guess jealous maybe? And Im not sure where this is coming from or why. maybe testing me? I don't think he is being an adult about this whole situation, I think it's a horrible thing to do to a person, to know their weak points and use them in a time like this. never in a million years would I think he would display this type of behavior. it is so heartbreaking to me.