First time post feeling lost and confused

[KevinIn]

It sounds like you are about 4-6 weeks behind me in the process. I felt or feel the same things. Fortunately, its getting easier and doesn't happen as frequently. I attribute this to 1) detaching, 2) GALing, and 3) accepting the reality of it all. I've also made a very significant effort to mellow out in life and not let this define me.

Here's some more specific thoughts...

Really feeling pretty down today. Really don't like this limbo stage.

I hear ya! I hate the limbo. I have many ups and downs.

Have you spoken to your primary care Dr. about any of this? Many people have mentioned getting Ativan (Lorazepam) or Xanax to help with the down days. Worth looking into.

Looking forward to seeing my children later and have them at the house until Friday.

Being with my kids is the best thing in the world for me right now. Definitely something to keep looking forward to.

Can't focus at work

Let me know when you figure out how to fix this one. I've gotten into a much happier place over the past 2-3 weeks, but my focus at work is still not there or where it used to be (hence why i'm on this site in the middle of the day). Good luck with it.

Possibly talk to your dr. about this too? Drugs can possibly help.

I really don't know what I'm grieving about more the loss of my family, the loss of my family life, or the uncertainty of the future.

You are probably grieving about each of these, based on the day, hour, minute, second. You have a perfectly acceptable reason to grieve. Its part of the process. See how i'm validating there? I'm practicing.