I spoke with H today as there was a bill he was responsible for that did not get paid s=so a conversation needed to happen.
It was okay. He of course talked about what he was doing, how his battery in his car was dead and he couldn't get to work and stuff like that. I of course told him how sorry I was and that I hope everything was happen to get worked out.
He then asked me if I had made the changes to the bill he asked me to do earlier and I told him that I hadn't and that it was a priority for me at this time. I did say some things that I shouldn't have said like.....I had asked him to do things and never heard any response from him for months and now that he needs me to do something I am supposed to drop everything. Now I realize I shouldn't have said that.
We got disconnected and when I called him back I said "what happened" and he said "I figured you were upset about something and hung up on me." I told him there was no reason for me to do that and he said "I was kidding." I know he was wasn't kidding.
I told him I was thinking about selling the house and he was shocked. I asked him if he was okay with it and he said "well I guess" and then said "I don't live there anymore so" I told him that I am living in limbo and don't know what I am supposed to speak to him about, and how I am supposed to handle things these days. He said he realized that we need to talk about things and asked me if I could speak to him later tonight. I told him that would be fine, and he said he would call me when he was done working around 7pm.
So, needless to say I am a bit scared about what this conversation is going to be about. I of course am thinking the worst.
I know the most important thing is for me to stay calm....that has been an issue for me in the past. I also don't want to become emotional....also another issue for me.
I am tempted to not answer the phone when he calls. But I know that is fear talking.
