Just journaling....

Today WH asked me to bring the kids and join him and a co-worker couple for lunch. I picked up the kids, put on a nice outfit and makeup and drove over to his job. The other couple was a half hour late so WH was a little stressed but it smoothed over when we got to the restaurant. Afterward WH and I took the kids to the park and let them run around a bit. I still get this...lack of connection. We talk about frivolous things but never about us. We do things together but it feels like being with a stranger. I feel like I am going a little nuts.

I want us to heal from this disaster and start to move forward but I feel like we're in this limbo land or something. I looked up Retrouville in my area and there is one in June. I am thinking of approaching WH to think about signing up. Thoughts?


M 10yrs T 13yrs
BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW
BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off
Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce
April '17-Letting go
2018 D busted
DD8, DS6, DS3