Wife left two days before our wedding anniversary!

[leahsue]

It's OK to always keep the faint glimmer of hope alive. I think we all do that. You have to keep that between you, this board, and the good Lord. :)(for now.) My H was the same way. One day he was loving, attentive, seemed to adore me, and like overnight he changed. The hardest thing I think I've learned from this nightmare is that love- the feeling- is fleeting; it comes and goes like happiness. But love-the decision - is more like joy. It's constant but sometimes you can't see it or feel it. You just have to keep on keepin on until the sun breaks through. And it will, for you, too, my friend. (In one of my most shameful, opposite of DB reactions, I remember screaming to him- was all this (my hand sweeping boxes of love notes, cards, photos, etc.) just a lie??? Of course he had no answer, but it was spoken out of absolute wide open pain, raw and unattractive.) And that pain of her not missing you that you can't describe? You don't have to- you have comrades beside you on this road who know it all too well. I'm really struggling today myself. I don't feel good physically-I think allergies- but I'm just so tired of thinking about the whole lot. I'm doing All. Of. The. Things. that we are supposed to do, but I just feel really shaky. It's good to come here on both kinds of days, b/c there is usually someone hanging out here who needs to feel needed too, and encouragement can usually be found. I think I'll go over to my thread and ask for some encouragement myself. Meanwhile, you keep taking one day at a time. You're already a better man for having felt this kind of pain and standing up to stare it right back in the face.