Hi J- just checking in on you today. In your post above you said something that jumped off the screen at me- "she doesn't deserve me" and "I'll show her." What are the common pronouns in those 2 sentences? SHE and HER. You're making it all about her. I want to begin to see your posts saying more about YOU. Remember, stop looking over your shoulder to see if she's watching. Chances are, she's not. And maybe someday she will- but I'm pretty sure it won't be at least until you're not checking to see if she is. You've got to detach in your head. Your heart will eventually follow. Hang in there!! You got this.

M-60 H-51
M-14 years
BD 12/26/16
S 1/1/17

"First the pain, then the rising."
Glennon Doyle Melton