A WW? (7)

[lt0402]

Mystery solved. spent this morning with D hanging out on the couch bc she has the flu. W out getting stuff for the house. Talked to D about thurs night and she told me that I'd told her I'd hang out with her after dinner. When she got done taking a shower after dinner I was out at the storage unit dropping stuff off.

So I apologized, told her I understood why she was mad, and told her that she's always welcome to tell me stuff like that whenever she is ready. I asked if we were good, she said yes, and we had a fun time all morning.

Now, I did hang out for a bit after dinner, but when she went to take a shower I left to get that done before bed. Told both her and W I was leaving. So I'm wondering if W fueled that, but who knows. Regardless, I feel very comfortable handling these things direct with D. W seems to think I'm helpless here and need her help with them. Totally not true.

One side effect of this whole thing is I can recognize different feelings and how to respond to them a lot better now. Looking back it seems like the extreme emotions just got buried and pushed through. It did about break my heart he other night when D ignored me, though I didn't show it. I care so much for the kid and the thought of less time with her [censored].

Realistically though, there doesn't seem to be hope for my situation. I do realize that. W needs to let her guard down and be open to it, but it's just not something I see happening. So now we are really stuck. I almost wonder if my Ws plan is to force me to end this situation. Who knows. I'll continue to do what I believe to be right and see where t takes us.

Right now is the perfect storm for W though. House on the market. I just got my annual bonus. Our bank account will be at its fullest if we do sell the house. If she is looking for the right financial time to exit this is it. One thing I have done, in September, as well as this week, was finish up Ds college fund. Out of reach of both W and I now. So I know D is setup should she choose to go to college. Makes me more comfortable to know that she won't need to scramble for funds when we get there.

Have someone doing a showing of the house right now. D and W waiting while I make a trip to take trash to the dump. Spending the rest of the day with D. Looking forward to the downtime with her.