Feeling it today. We had planned as a family to go on a tour around Scotland over Easter. Only booked before Christmas by the wife. It has since been cancelled and my daughter said earlier we go to Scotland soon in the camper van. It breaks my heart to what my wife is doing and the implications it will have on my family. She text me earlier and I replied and said I think we need to tell outlet oldest something. She keeps questioning where I am to my parents and the lies we have been telling to explain my absence are now getting to much. The wife's reaction no we will tell her next week when I'm back from a business trip. I just want to shout and scream at her. She has hardly contacted them since wednesday. It's like she has just pressed the [censored] it button (my councillor phrase) with no thought of the outcome. As long as she is having fun then balls to everyone else. She has just removed a family picture as her cover picture on fbook. I know patience is the key but the more this goes on the more I'm thinking that why should I even entertain reconsilling with her.
To add insult to injury she knew I had the kids this weekend as she is skiing and has agreed a sleep over for my eldest at one of her friends house. My d is so looking forward to it so I would never stop her but why on the weekend when I was having them.
I'm starting to think that it is time to start thinking about me with regard to the divorce. I told her is she wants a divorce then file for it. Still nothing but she has arranged mediation, so I and starting to look down a barrel of the gun and starting to accept that she is hell bent on this.
I just don't get it from 10 weeks ago booking holidays, offering to put money in my pension, to now wanting a divorce.
Me:43 W:34 T10 M7 D-5 S-1 Dec16- w says we need mc Jan 17- w doesn't commit to mc Feb 17 - ea discovered Dec 16 D-day Feb 17- one night hook up March 17 w wants out but won't file
