I'm starting to realise that this process that I've been going through isn't going to be one that ever stops. I'm not going to suddenly 'come out the other side of it', and return to a previous life. This had changed me and my life in a very fundamental way, and for ever, and it's going to keep affecting me and my life probably for as long as I live.
I think you're right...it never will stop. We just have to learn to live with things the way they are and compartmentalize...
Good to hear from you, Jeep! Hope you are well.
I'm not sure about compartmentalising though. I'm trying my hardest to assimilate this whole experience, so that it hopefully becomes a living part of me. If it's living, it means it's also constantly changing. Maybe in very small ways at times, but the constantly changing thing is important to me now.
If you'd known me before all of this, you would see how much of a 180 this is for me. I used to be so scared of everything that I hung on to things, and tried hard not to let them change. Or I would try and compartmentalise as much as possible, so that I could deal with the change that was happening in one part of my life.
Anyway, your post has given me food for thought, which is good...what it's all about
