WW with affair moved out 4+ weeks ago

[15Stang]

Thanks everyone. I appreciate the encouragement. Sometimes it's tough to wrap my head around everything that is going on. It's been five weeks today since she walked out and left. I know I wasn't the perfect husband but I do feel that I brought the best of myself to this marriage. What makes me frustrated and think a lot is 'was my best not enough for her?' Or are these her issues and she doesn't know how to resolve them so she makes completely selfish choices? I know it's easy to blame the other person all the time. I don't want to blame my wife. I've been trying to reflect back upon myself and while I have not been perfect I do feel like the last three years I have really become a different person. I am very happy with the growth that I've had in the last three years. But at the end of the day it still wasn't enough.

In my opinion there's never a good reason to go out and have an affair. Truly, what kind of person does that? I know people on this forum have no idea who I am and what kind of husband I was or the kind of marriage I had....... but regardless of that I thought I was a pretty darn good husband and made a great partner in a marriage. Nothing I have done makes me deserve this kind of treatment from my wife. It is sad to see the person she has become. Please understand I'm not trying to be prideful and say that I did nothing wrong. I have my issues and I will continue to work on them to make me be the best person I can be. It's just hard for me to wrap my head around how someone can justify this type of behavior.

Thanks for letting me vent everyone. The thoughts of me being some kind of failure have just been bouncing around in my head all night tonight.