First time post feeling lost and confused

[dodog]

I know there isn't om on the scene it was a 3 month long ea with a hook up on one occasion. I know that she is having one of her friends in her ear to follow this thorough one who really donesnt like me. It is tough being in limbo. I just want us to try and make this work. She says she has been trying to fall in love with me for some time and she is spent. I'm sure what else I can do to be honest. Sitting here at 8pm all alone kids asleep. Just with so much time in my hands I just start over thinking stuff. Been prescribed some medication to try to combat the sleep problem and over thinking which seems to be working. Not contacted her since Wednesday and that was just about the children and the house. Got a golf trip coming up in a few weeks which I can't wait for just to get away. Also now i have told her that I will be having the children 2 nights a week plus every other weekend at the house and her to not be there I have a bit more stability. The mediator said that we could be months away from sorting this out which only helps me try to see if she starts to turn her way of thinking. Everything I have done so far hasn't worked so going dark and nc may do. She has in her
Mind what she wants with regard to settlement which is basically a new house x amount of cash. Basically her Life now with the exception of me. I'm not going to be walked over re settlement. When you all say patience patience patience and more patience your not wrong.