Count on ups and downs (III)

[WillDo]

I again can't sleep. Deep down I am hurt. I am trying to get the least damage but it is still happening. I shouldn't believe what she says. She wants to hurt me. One thing for sure, she has hurt me.

I feel more and more angry. Why keep ailenating the kids against me? Why being secretive about everything? I don't know what to change? How fo do it differently. This midlife crisis is hurting.