MLC? Maybe you can tell me...

[Bird]

So... gave my atty my thoughts on his email a week ago. She hasn't gotten back to me yet.

In the meantime, he's been textier than usual. All business, but I sense a higher level of communication from him. He's even chatted briefly while picking up the kids (again, all business but still it's something). We were in the giant blizzard this week. He got out of work early on Tues and came over to snowblow the driveway for me. Then he came over again yesterday around noon and did it again. He told me last night when he came back to pick up the kids that if I needed him to do it again before I left for work just to text him in the morning. Trying to keep my expectations at zero. This is "old H" behavior, making sure we're taken care of. He came upstairs when he picked them up to grab their bags (he never leaves the foyer normally) and commented on how good the house smelled (I had made butter chicken and jasmine rice for my dinner and it did smell amazing I have to say).

D12 has an orthodontist appt tomorrow am and there is no school here. They are with him on Thursday nights so she will be at his house tomorrow. I texted to remind him that she has an appt. I said I can take her but can you bring her by the house on your way to work so I can take her to work with me before her appt. He said sure, and to text him when we get to ortho because he can come and get her and bring her back home for me.

I don't want to look into it at all. Because this is the roller coaster car getting to the top of the hill before it goes flying to the bottom. Ugh, but I can't help it. I'm hoping there's a glimmer of old H in there fighting.

Lastly, he has the kids for St Paddy's since it's Friday, not for the holiday. They realized they wouldn't be here and went nuts because it's "my" holiday (I take all things Irish very seriously, lol). So he texted earlier in the week and said they told him they wanted to spend it with me. I told him that they had told me the same but that I said it was really up to him. I'd bought corned beef & cabbage to make for friday and I was happy to have them if it was ok with him. He said that sounded good and that he would pick them up after and take them out for dessert.

So this morning because I love to kick myself, I texted and invited him for dinner. I told him the girls and I talked about it (we had) and wondered if he'd like to join us for dinner and that I had already planned to make a cake for dessert. Trying to be the lighthouse. So he texted back after a couple hours and said he had told some people at work he'd join them for a St Paddy's beer after work, but would it be ok if he joined us for dessert at the house afterward. I responded and said that sounds good to me and I'll let the girls know.

I'm trying to walk the fine line of not pursuing but trying to be someone he wouldn't want to run away from. Warm house full of good smells, smiling wife and kids (and the dog)... just something for him to think of on his nights alone. OW can't give him those things...

I'm really hoping that some little cracks of light are starting to shine through. I also know I'm a glutton for punishment because I don't know when to quit. We'll see how things go...