a H's story-14 years, 6 kids, & crashing...

[Gordie]

I feel your pain. I have 5 kids. I've heard many of the same things from my W. My W's friends sound like your W's therapist: toxic. I am in NYC. Good: your W is still complaining, you are going on dates, you are speaking to one another, you are still married, your kids. Bad: your W is very committed to her D plan and you are ready to throw in the towel. Ugly: you are an emotional wreck and you need to get your own house in order in order to move forward whether or not you save your M. It's hurting your parenting. It's making you even less attractive to your W. You have a therapist and a psychiatrist. Are they not helping? Maybe dwelling on your past and your future are too much for you right now. Suicidal thoughts? We have all had them. How serious are these? Put a suicide helpline in your contacts and call them when those thoughts arise. Can you live in the moment? Past is ugly. Future is uncertain. The present is all we have.