It just hurts so much not knowing. What does it usually mean when people don't have anything to do with you? It means they are rejecting you. They don't like you. I know that's not what it necessarily means in this case, but it _feels_ like they don't like me and don't give a s--t about me. And that really hurts. It hurts not knowing. And yes, I want to recruit help in waking her up. I want her to suffer for what she is doing. I want people to know what she is doing and make her hurt. And wake her up. She's not just hurting me. She's contributing to that family losing their father/husband.

M: 33, W: 30 @BD
M 7, T 10
BD: Early Dec
W left: Late Dec
W got stuff: Late Jan
W sent S papers: Mid Feb
OM cnfrmd: Late Feb

Pain can yield tremendous growth OR everlasting sadness and bitterness.