Thank you all for the support. It really means a lot to me.
Job, I think I will always love her but I don't love this new stranger. I hope the beautiful woman I know is still in there somewhere but realize I can't count on it.
Buttrfly, congrats on starting your training. It was an eye opening experience for me. There was a lot going on, lots of visuals I wasn't expecting. I'm excited for my next appointment.
Today was actually alright, I did better than I thought. I almost got emotional about 2 hours before but let it go as soon as it started. I felt kind of numb to it all when I went to sign. I felt nothing really, no relief, no dread, no sadness, no happiness...nothing. Hopefully nothing comes later.
