Thanks doodler It is a journey, gets more bizarre by the day. I so wish I could develop that attitude of hope and excitement. It feels so far away.
My wife told the kids on Friday she wants to buy them a puppy. So now we are dog hunting. We are separated and going to now bring a puppy into our lives. Go figure. (Hey maybe a dog will save our marriage. At least I'll have someone to share the doghouse im in with.)
Saw my therapist today, told him I was thinking about throwing the towel in. He felt like I was throwing out the baby with the bathwater. I'm honestly not sure. I don't know what quitting means I don't know what fighting means.
Excercised today. Saw a movie. Went to a jazz club w a friend. Just trying to be spiritual and take it slowly. Have anxiety about weekend alone. Supposed to take my wife to a basketball game on a date tomorrow night. Don't really have a desire to be with her. Almost want to tell her I want to cancel the date. Wish there were instruction books here...
------ Me 45, W 50 M1 - 1994 D1 - 2000 T-8 M-2.5 No children M2 (current w)- 2003 T-14 M-14 BD1 - Jan 2016 Sept 7 2016, Piecing BD2 - Nov 2016, IWAD Jan 2017, Piecing D-12, D-10,D-10,D-10,D-9,S-8
