Dealing with Devastation

[giftd]

On the way home from work tonight her farther called to talk. I'm trying to be upbeat because she's talking to our friend, my best friend, tomorrow and she initiated the conversation. He's very reasonable and his words carry weight with both of us. Her father just talks about our day, just checking in. Then I get the mail and there's a change of address confirmation letter.

Broken all over again.

I'm working hard on myself, trying to detach, trying to do it for me because I want to be better. But these little things creeping in every time I get optimistic is such a set back. Her father said he had no idea she was doing that. He knows where she has been staying and that it is temporary, no lease as far as he knows. He's frustrated because her completely avoiding me (I'm initiating no conversations that aren't necessary for the animals at this point) is both selfish and childish. It seems like she is running from everything in her life, there's no real reasoning other than small resentments over time make her feel like she loves me but isn't "in love" with me.

I know how she works, but this isn't like her to just run from problems. I'm worried that if I do nothing it will just continue on this path until she reaches the point of no return in her mind like she has in the past with other things. I understand she's scared, needs time, but cutting these small ties (phone, netflix, mailing address) is maddening. If the conversation tomorrow doesn't go well her father has said he wants to says some things when he talks to her again this weekend. He's been supportive to her without directly supporting her decision (said he gave her some options for living arrangements that don't result in a long term lease). I told him that's his decision, I'm not asking, I appreciate his advice for me since he's been divorced once before. He said she has some things she needs to hear, he just has been waiting for her to figure it out herself. Going on a month now, he's thinking it's time he says something.

I'm worried her talking to our friend (he's more my friend, introduced us and was best man at the wedding), and her father saying something will drive her further away. It's their decisions, maybe she needs to hear what they have to say. I don't know exactly what they are going to say. Just know that they "believe in us". Maybe her hearing what they have to say will get her thinking, as far as I know she's diving into her work to avoid things.

Going in tomorrow to finalize my application for graduation. Gonna be a long day...